misunderstanding

ari ni merupakan genab sebulan aq dgn shafi.. aq rse die x tawu kot.. sepatutnye ari ni aq hepi. tp spnjg ari ni, die asyik skitkn aty aq je. dr smlm, aq tgk die dgn aisya mcm ade simpan smething dr aq. aq jealous sgt.
'no, i cn't be jealous. he's not mine yet.'
after terawih, i went to class. aisya sat besides me. terdetik dlm aty aq utk tnye sndri kt aisya, ape kaitan die dgn shafi.

wana : u guys look such like a sweet couple
aisyah : no, it was just misunderstanding, ok, i'll explain to u.
aisyah : u know why shafi act like tht to me?
wana : no, i dun know
aisyah : shafi haven't tell u?
wana : nop
aisyah : actually, shafi buat mcm tu sbb die nak ubah pndgn org trhadap awk dgn shafi. die x nak orang tawu yg korang ade ape2. especially cikgu
aisyah : jgn fkir bkn2. die syg awk sgt2. die ade ckp, in the future, klu die ade rumah ke, kereta ke, u the one yg die nak share sume tu.
wana : die buat sy terharu.. tp knp die x bg tawu plan die kt sy..
aisyah : dulu die ade ckp, die tkut nk express feeling die kt awk sbb die tkut awk x kn terikat dgn mne2 laki. n die pun ade ckp, die kena luahkan isi hati die sbb die tkut die akn trlepas. die tkut laki lain dpt awk dulu..

conflict

shafi : ok, here goes. jgn terkejut eh.. we both know tht i like u. i've never felt this way, not to anyone else before. serious i ckp, if i already have a job, home, stable economy, i da melamar u da, no joking. tp thts the thing, we were just school kids. tht dream is really far away from now. thts why i told u how i felt coz i want u to know this and not be too surprised if one day i do come and melamar u. actually, im fine if u dun want to be tht close in class, i understand..

shafi ; so, abt not using i n u in class, im cool with tht.. but i can't promise to not feel this way abt u..

shafi : n i know this sound selfish, but i told u how i felt, also bcoz i was afraid tht u'd end up with somebody else.. haha yeah, stupid right?

shafi : n im really really really sory for all the troublesome things u endured, just bcoz of my selfish feelings.. n i dun mind if u nk go back to the way it was before..

his journal entry

why am i..?
lately, i've been rather, confused. i think i recognize this overwhelming sensation before, but now, its even enveloping. some people i asked, said tht its normal, tht i should go with the flow, but some wants me to just keep it inside any longer, but i also can't afford to let it out, not at these times. and i usually keep things like this a secret, from everybody, but this time, even my parents know about it. by judging from their faces, the smiles of happiness tht radiated, it looks as tthough i have their consent. absolutely, i should really accept facts tht this is never the time for this. however, i shall never stop continuing to bask in this wonderful feeling, and wait for the right time for a move. please wait for me, my dear...


*ape yg die tlis ni, hnye mampu buat aq tersenyum.. even, my mom also know about u. and now, i had knew ur feelings towards me. yes, for this moment, it's better for us to be friends. but, the way u treat me is like more than a fren. i also can't stop continuing to bask in this wonderful feeling.. insyaallah, we both will wait for the right time for a more.. dun worry my dear, i'll wait for u too..

debate competition in mrsm alor gajah

time ni, die pegi mrsm alor gajah, lwn debate.. die mmg hebat giler ar debate.. lot of brilliant idea.. *jealous..
kteowg mcj spnjg die kat alor gajah.. almost every 1 hour, kteorg akn mcj.. bole abis kedit.. huhu

shafi : x nk ke bear yg 'special'?
wana : x nak ar, sume bear sme je... x special pun.. ape beza yg special dgn yg x special?
shafi : the special one is the one given by a guy to a special girl, who he thinks is really really cute..
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wana : raihan rndu gile kat ko
shafi : die je ke ?
wana : em, bani n musyi pun rndu ko kot..
shafi : hm.. lagi?? wana x rndu ke? coz i do miss u.. a lot..

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wana : ptg ni nak main basket dgn bani
shafi : ??x ke pelik tu?
wana : ape yg peliknye?
shafi : main basket dgn bdk laki..
wana : ala, raihan n aisya pun main skali... em, jealous la tu
shafi : haah.. jealous sgt.. wana trlampau comel.. mana bole main dgn bani
wana : x yh nk merepek
shafi : it's not called merepek if it is true..

to: wanazwin xv

This is the first letter tht he had gave to me
shafi: i hope tht, this aren't gonna change
me: i hope so, insyaallah

rhsia trbongkar

Shafi: ok aq bg tawu tp wana kne jnji, x kn trkejut gegila klu tawu.. Jnji??
Me: jnji.. Ape yg nk trkjutnye..
Shafi: ok, org yg sy admire selama ini ialah..
Me: erm, klu mcm tu x yh bg tawu la
shafi: 'wana'

Aq hnye mmpu trsenyum bce mcj ni..

Shafi: actually wana, u've made me realise smething, smething important.. N for tht, i thank u.. Trime kasih krn memahami
me: u know wht, fyi, u r the choosen guy tht i'm waiting for.. Klu ko serius dgn aq, i'll wait for u..
Shafi: n know this wana, u won't have to wait for me.. Pretty sure, u 'll find smebody waay better than me.. I cn bet u on tht..
Me: i dun think so
Shafi: huh, well anyhow.. I think we both knw whats more important here.. So yeah..:)
Shafi: n dun forget straight A++ for trial n spm.. Ammiinn..

confirmation

Sepnjg ari ni aq x khusyuk solat. Tiap kli aq solat, msti aq trigt kt die.. Aq sedih sgt.. Terasa mcm aq da smkin jauh dgn pncipta aq, Allah s.w.t.. Smpi ari ni aq msih trtnye-tnye, adakah die serius ske kn aq??? Aq x thn.. Perasaan ni trus mghntui aq..
So aq amek kputusn utk tnye die sndri..

Me: shafi, aq ade soalan cepumas utk ko..
Shafi: ape die??
Me: ko ade minat spe2 x kt mktb ni??
Shafi: ade
me: erm, spe orgnye? Bole aq tawu?
Aisyah: aq da tawu da
me: la, spe?? Bg la tawu..

Raihan teka aq, shafi ckp ya.. Musyi pun teka aq, musyi tnye die serius ke? Pstu aq x dgr pe die ckp sbb aq dgr mp3.. Aq merajuk dgn die sbb x bg tawu spe org yg die minat tu??
Ptg tu, die tnye aq. Btul ke aq nk tawu spe org tu?? Aq ckp, ' x pe la, tu hal peribadi ko.. Ko ade hak nk bg tawu aq ke x nk'
Ape yg bestnye, ptg tu aq kol mk aq.. Aq branikn diri bg tau mk aq.. Mak aq x mrh pun.. Sporting kn mk aq..

conversation between raihan n me

Me: raihan, bg la tawu saya ape yg awk ckp dgn shafi td? Die tawu x yg sy da tawu die ske sy?
Raihan: die tnye sy, awk da tawu blm psl die ske awk tu.. Sy katablum.. Die sruh sy jgn bg tawu awk..
Me: lg? Ape yg korang ckp lg??
Raihan: sy tnye die prnh ske spe ke b4 this.. Then, die jwb, x prnh..
Me: abis tu adeena? Bkn die ske adeena ke??
Raihan: tu dlu, die kata die maybe confess kt awk
me: die btul ke ske kn sy?
Raihan: die kata x de la nk couple.. But then, after 1st degree kot.. Sy tnye die lg, mcm mne dkt universiti nnt? Msti jmpe lg rmi org.. Die jwb, x pe la, aq tggu je

time tu mmg aq x brhnti snyum.. Haha;-)

i'm cute

Assalamualaikum,
Ari ni aq hepi sgt.. Aq rse mcm aq yg plg hepi kt dunia ni.. Cbe teka sbb ape??
Hahaha..
smlm kn aq ade cite psl shafi tu. The last period today was subjek bio. Teacher was not around.. Everybody was doing their own work.. Shafi sat beside me while bani sat beside musyi.. Kteowg sembang2 but then tbe2 trkluar cite psl kawin.. Aq ckp msti shafi kawin dlu sbb die da ade calon, adeena kot.. Then, die trus pndg aq n mrh.. Die ckp jgn sebut nme adeena lg.. I said sory..

then suddenly die tnye aq, prnh x ape yg brlaku kt aq ni jd kt ko?. Aq ckp prnh tp da lme da, time form 3..

Pstu tkr topik len plk.. N now we r talking about musyi's sister.. Musyi tunjuk gmbr adk die kt shafi n bani.. Tp shafi n bani x tawu nk jwb ape.. Musyi sruh dorang ckp comel tp dorang x ckp pun.. But then, i heard shafi's voice n said ' comel lg wana'*wana=me.. They r all laughing at me.. Dorang ejek 'ceh, shafi dgn wana'.. Shafi sengeh2..

The whole day i cn see some different on how he treats me.. He was so kind..

Spnjg hdup aq, ari ni bru aq rse 'my life is meaningful'.. Huhu

story begin

Assalamualaikum.
Mse aq kt mrsm taiping, aq ade sorang clasmate yg perangainya pelik semcm. He's the one yg aq rse aq ske die..dulu, die slalu sebut nme adeena dpn aq, smpi aq pun naik jealous.. Skrang ni ble aq sebut2 nme adeena, die plk yg mrh.. Sbnrnye ape yg da jd antre shafi n adeena??
Die cite kt aq, actually adeena da brpunye and da couple dgn org yg die minat..

Me: then knp sblm ni ko sebut2 nme die?
Shafi: saje
me: ckp btul2, aq tawu ko tipu aq
shafi: sbnrnye time tu aq tgh kecewa
me: tp knp ko slalu sebut nme die smpi ko ukir nme die kt batu?
Shafi: ....
Me: @ ko hnye nk skitkn aty ko?
Shafi: sort of

aq mle fkir, dlm fikirn aq mngatakn ape yg brlaku kt die, da prnh brlaku kt aq.. Aq kesian tgk die.. Die slalu merajuk dgn aq klu aq sebut nme adeena dpn die..
Mle drpd situ, aq tgk sikap die smakin pelik.. Die smakin rpt dgn aq. Klu blaja, die msti dduk sblh aq n rajin tlg aq.. X prnh2 die mcj aq tp kli ni die mcj aq.. Aq dpt rse yg die ske kt aq.. X tau la, mgkin prasaan aq je kot..